From a forward I got today~

'May today there be peace within. May you trust that you are exactly
where you are meant to be. May you not forget the infinite
possibilities that are born of faith in yourself and others. May you
use the gifts that you have received, and pass on the love that has
been given to you.

May you be content with yourself just the way you are. Let this
knowledge settle into your bones, and allow your soul the freedom to
sing, dance, praise and love. It is there for each and every one of
us.'


Amen to all of that.....

Today is worse.....I wait upon you.

I've got a heartache. But no one to share it with. Lord, let me hear you clearly.

Baby update~

According to what to expect .com I am 32 weeks pregnant. My doctor would say 31+ so many days. So, I will take the high count and go with 32 weeks!!!!! Eight weeks left--OMG, I'm starting to go a little in panick mode! Both of the boys were born early. Justus was six weeks and Zeke was three weeks. I kind of have a feeling that I may go the entire time this go around. So I have prepared myself for another eight weeks of heartburn night and day. Still I feel the need to have everything ready NOW!

My actual due date is March 9th! Holy Cow! I need to find a small dresser to but the baby things in. Then get all the immediate baby need stuff together. My list so far includes gathering the following things: swaddlers (diapers), passy just in case this one will take a passy, washing all the clothes, pack for the hospital. Oh yeah, figure out where the baby will sleep. Justus & Zeke have a bed but so far neither one has slept in it through the night yet. Zeke still prefers the crib but he's about to be booted out!

I went to the doctor on Friday. I have gained 12lbs so far. IT's not super bad but more than I have usually gained in this point. Depending on when the baby actually comes I figure the end total will be between 15-20lbs. YIKES! Coming up are the 1hr glucose test to see if I have gestational diabetes. Pre-register for the hospital. Sonogram #2, I am hoping for a good sonographer this time & some good pictures of the baby. And of course for the next month appointments every two weeks. Yippee!

This time we decided not to have a baby shower. I think it's pretty unnessecary since it's my third boy. I pretty have whatever I need. But I do want to have a meet the baby get together after the baby is born. What do you think about it? I just think it makes more sense. For the most part I have all things baby, even if they are 4yrs old. One thing that I did see and thought was pretty cool was a diaper bag/baby carrier. It looks like a messenger bag & has a place to hold the baby on your hip. I have no idea how useful it would be. It's probably the type of thing that you either love it or hate.

Well girls, that's the update for now.

This was the worst holiday season of my life. Even my teenage years could not compare to this tortureous few weeks. It's 3am & I'm still awake because there is so much turmoil in my mind right now. O Lord, please give me peace & wisdom that only comes from you.